10am, woke up
watched movies untill 12;45
then went to the barn
victor is back.
they were roping, so i went on a trail ride instead.
it was nice. BoBo was hyper, but he only spooked at the deer once.
i think im losing it, again. i had to pull over on the way home because my brain was screaming so loud i couldn't think. and all it would say was he doesnt love you/ he left you for a reason/too fat/too ugly/too dumb. I though best friends forever had a meaning. guess not. they all leave eventually. even when the (empty) promises say otherwise.
is it so wrong, to just want to curl up and cease to exist.
im cracked in the head.
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